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live in the show Seeing a Psychiatrist 09/09/08, Chicago at the Cafe
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Published in her book Close Cover Before Striking, read (for future audio CD release) 06/28/11 live at the Café
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of the intro to the 06/28/11 open mic at the Café in Chicago, plus her Close Cover Before Striking prose & poem
video Enjoy this YouTube video of Janet Kuypers reading her poems Mary’s Perspective on How that Whole Jesus thing Turned Out”, “letter, 4/14/95 one”, “letter, 4/14/95 two”, “letter, 4/14/95 three”, “letter, 4/19/95”, “Us Creative Types”, and “How People Interpret My Words” from the CyberWit.net Janet Kuypers 2023 poetry book “Testament” on 4/30/23 in front of St. Mary’s Cathedral in Austin for the 2023 Poetry Bomb (this video was filmed from a Panasonic Lumix 2500 camera; posted on Facebook, Twitter, Linkedin, Pinterest, Instagram, and Tumblr). video This was also released as a Facebook live video stream that was filmed and streamed from a Samsung S9 camera; on Facebook, Twitter, Linkedin, Instagram, and Tumblr). #janetkuypers #janetkuyperspoetry #janetkuypersbookreading #janetkuyperspoetrybomb

letter, 4/14/95 one

I’m kind of dead in the water. My burger-flippin’ gig fell through, or I fell through it. The morning I was to start, I put on my idiot uniform & got into my car to make the gig, & I COULD NOT DO IT. Big time anxiety attack. Telling myself that if I don’t get some bread together I’m gonna end up in various kinds of hell did not work.

is this what I’m reduced to? I can’t
go through with it, I can’t, I just can’t.
I deserve better than this. More. Some
thing rewarding, something fulfilling,

something not so empty, useless, life
less like the feeling left in my stomach.
At least I still have feeling, or is it just
a numbness of sorts, a numbness and an

anger. Numbness alone isn’t enough to
kill myself over, apathy and lack of
feeling doesn’t promote action. What do
I want? What can I do? What range of

emotions to I still have to go through,
before I’ve hit them all? I feel like I’m
near the end. When I get there, I’ll
know. Maybe it’s anger. I don’t know yet.


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